Random Musings. . .by Kui Gathua

    I'm not a stranger to the dark Hide away, they said 'Cause we don't want your broken parts I've learned to be ashamed of all my scars Run away, they said No one will love you as you are But I won't let them break me down to dust I know that there's a place for us For we are glorious When the sharpest words wanna cut me down I'm gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out I am brave, I am bruised I am who I'm meant to be, this is me Look out 'cause here I come And I'm marching on to the beat I drum I'm not scared to be seen I make no apologies, this is me Another round of bullets hits my skin Well, fire away 'cause today, I won't let the shame sink in We are bursting through the barricades And reaching for the sun (we are warriors) Yeah, that's what we've become And I know that I deserve your love There's nothing I'm not worthy of This is brave, this is bruised This is who I'm meant ...

  “ The only person who can pull me down is myself, and I’m not going to let myself pull me down anymore .” ~ C. JoyBell C.   My reading this week had me thinking about growth. The process of spiritual growth is an effortful and difficult one because it is conducted against a natural inclination to keep things the way they are, to cling to the old maps and old ways of doing things, to take the easy path. This force is known as inertia, the force of entropy; a resistance to rock the boat. The ‘if it ain’t broke don’t fix it’ mentality. Love is defined as the will to extend one’s self for the purpose of nurturing one’s own or another’s spiritual growth. Today I’m thinking about self-love. When we grow, it is because we are working at it, and we are working at it because we love ourselves. It is through love that we elevate ourselves. Love is the miraculous force that defies the natural law of entropy. However, there is a force that seeks to hold us back from our attempt...

“ Anyone can hide. Facing up to things, working through them, that’s what makes you strong .”~Sarah Dessen Life comes with twists and turns that can at times cripple us for a while or forever. The loss of a loved one, the falling through of a deal we’d pegged our hopes on, the end of yet another promising relationship! Some of these situations can feel like the back of our knees have been whacked and we crumble to the floor with no strength to rise up again. And there’s nothing wrong with staying down for a while. Part of moving on is acknowledging the present and taking time to grieve those things that hurt us. Consolidating our lessons and charting a way forward are all part of the grief process. But, life is for the living. And so long as you’re breathing, you do have to get up from the ashes and move on. Some can’t and don’t find the strength within them to pull up. This is where friends and relatives come in handy to hold our hands, pull us up, and walk alongside our wobbly se...

  Tonight, I Feel Empty, A Poem by Huda Fatima Sitting on my bed Staring at my image In the mirror in front I wonder – how can I be this unhappy? How could my heart feel this heavy? There’s this nothingness sitting over me Which I want to escape I feel lost in a cage I need something to keep me going Because I’ve lost my own sense And I’m left with nothing else Even tears, tonight, have left my chest I FEEL EMPTY I have nothing much to say Except that I’m scared Scared of losing me once again I feel small and weak And physically falling sick I wanna scream and run to some place HAPPY I wanna feel something which is not COLD and EMPTY So Darling Me – Please Calm Down And stay with Me tonight I don’t want to feel lonely. Occasionally, this poem describes the way I’m feeling to a T. As a partial melancholic, I experience bouts of low lows that could be triggered by a variety of causes some ‘valid’ others ‘trivial.’ Some days, a song o...

  “ Change is an event but a transition is the process that you go through in response to the change .” ~William Bridges Today is a special day for one of my nieces. After a 6-month delay, she is finally graduating from PP2 and will be joining grade one when schools open in a few weeks. It’s all she’s been talking about for a while now. . .”when I go to grade one. . .” I can only smile and say a prayer for her. We had no graduations at that level when I grew up and I do not purport to know how she feels. But I get the fact that a change is about to take place today, that will trigger a happy transition in her life. Lately, a lot of us have experienced change from one position, state or place to another. For a few of us, that transition has been a joyous one. For the majority, it has been a bitter experience and probably continues to be. Change is instantaneous. It often takes place at a moment in time. Transition, however, is a process that can sometimes take us from one state or...